Since I was locked in the CB just over a week ago I’ve got so horny, I would do anything to cum. What makes it worse is that I know I won’t be able to until a new Master allows me to and that at the moment I seem to be so far off finding a new master that I’m never likely to cum again. It is keeping me very focused on the task at hand, which is a good thing and getting me used to long term denial again, which is good. The problem is i don’t remember my desperation to cum being this bad ever, I think it’s the fact that I’m permanently in the seed pod device as my holy trainer split. The seedpod doesn’t allow me any access to my cock and balls, with the holy trainer I could touch my balls and feel my cock a bit if I moved it or pushed my cock right to the bottom. With the seed pod it’s just…. Nothing. I reach down and just feel the coldness of the metal and nothing on my cock and balls. Of course I feel the weight of it a bit but it’s manageable; other than that it’s as if my cock and balls aren’t there. It’s the first time I’ve been locked full time in the seed pod as I’ve always felt it a bit bulky for everyday wear, but once you get used to it, it really isn’t. I’ve ordered a cheap plastic device as a spare, but I think I’ll be in this one until I get a new Master, which could be quite a while.
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Surveillance
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(un)locked
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